Day one - About me

March 9, 2008

I have had a weight problem as far back as I can remember, maybe starting around age 8. Maybe not as extreme as it is now, but it has always been there in varying degrees. Many of my extended family are overweight, big eaters, not so big on exercise.

 I’m a 31yr old Dad from Sydney, originally a country boy. I work as a graphic artist so there isn’t alot of running involved. Recently I have realised if I didn’t change my ways soon I wouldn’t be around long for my beautiful 4 yr old daughter. The past 7 yrs have been turmoil for me emotionally and I have added a massive 60 kgs to what was already a serious weight problem. Here is the cut down very summarised version of the past 8 yrs.

2000

At age 24ish I was around 115-120kgs, big but not extremely big, given I am 6′2 I carried the weight ok but even then was out of shape. It was around this time my Mum was to go through a series of medical problems that stemmed from her weight and bad habits, habits some of which I had inherited. On top of the list was a mass the size of a baseball on one of her ovaries which turned out to be malignant. She spent the next 6 years in agony, lung and heart problems, diabetes, necrosis of her flesh and around 18 abridements, radiation, chemotherapy. A hard thing to watch someone you love go through, almost losing her many times every year was now looking back alot to handle but when you are living it and worrying about someone something inside you forgets to take care of yourself. I’ve seen the inside of more hospital’s, ICU wards and waiting rooms than I care to remember or ever want to again.

 2003
Beautiful baby daughter born. She’s the biggest reason I started this site.

2006

February 2006
I find out my Mum’s cancer is now terminal and my partner decides to seperate with me claiming she is in love with a net buddy overseas, blames me with time. I’ve hit 145kgs and feel empty. I have no emotional support. Floundering to keep my head above water.

 September 13 2006 I lost my Mum to the cancer, she fought hard and for that I am immensely proud. She was just 52. Her last days have stuck with me, grief is a nasty thing to experience. I realise now for the past 7 yrs I have been suffering depression, grieving before I had even lost.

2007
September 2007 I lost my Nan (Maternal grandmother) to emphysema and diabetes. She was a heavy smoker for years, she spent the last few years of her life on portable oxygen. I too was a smoker, 16 yrs of it, heavily.

2008
It has been absolute hell, but as of January 3rd 2008 I quit, had a few minor relapses, probably 2 small packs of cigarettes altogether. I am on top of it now with the help of patches originally and now nicotine gum. I feel I have control over my cravings and it feels great. Now for the monster battle. I don’t care how long it takes but I am going to lose ATLEAST 80 kgs. I am aiming very roughly at 18 months. I myself have been diagnosed with a “Fatty Liver” so rapid weightloss is out of the question. I don’t care how much I lose each week, aslong as it is something.

 Monday March 10 2008 - Launch this site.

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